There are people monitoring me in private teasing me like I was going to have a "relationship" with an older lady and making a sound when I try to think about it so that I can't somehow or they try.  They pretend to appeal that they're good by taking some of it back.

They want to take away my "relationship" and say stupid things about why.  They even had the whole world know about her and think about her all the time so she can't care about me.